I am still reading the book Guruji, through the eyes of his students. So many stories, so much wisdom. So much to take in before I am going to sleep.
On my mind is still my job and why it is not making me feel satisfied. My ideas and thoughts run around during the day.
'Maybe I should write another book.'
'Maybe I should become a yoga teacher.'
'Maybe I should go to Mysore for months and sell my house and go live with my parents.'
'Maybe I should concentrate on the positive things about my job.'
'Maybe I should work at a vegan restaurant.'
And on and on and on and on. I am happy when I am home after work, cook dinner, do the dishes, then some reading and go to bed early so I can go to my Mysore Class in the morning.
Luckily I came across the chapter in the book Guruji where Sharath was interviewed.
Through Guruji I had to change not only my body but my lifestyle.I had so many friends, and they used to call for parties, and I had to say no, and I slowly got more serious about yoga practice. My mind totally changed, my focus changed. After five in the evening my mind would go to tomorrow's practice. When that is there, you don't think about other things, you don't have distractions.'
I still have distractions. Lots of them. They are about my in satisfaction. Or about me wanting something which will give me more fulfillment during the day.
This week I practiced five times. I started on Sunday with the Led Class, and then from Tuesday - Friday. Monday was a Moonday. My BF says he never saw me this happy and satisfied and positive in all the years he's known me (I think this is about ten years). So Ashtanga is giving me pleasure and fulfillment and joy. But somehow I am still very much distracted by negative thoughts about my job.
Lucky for me, now I can take a break from work as I have vacation now. For three whole weeks!
I took this picture in Zanzibar