I never like it when a book starts with a dream. Or if it turns out a weird scene in the movie I am watching turns out to be a fantasy. Nevertheless, I had a dream last night (or maybe I better say this morning before I woke up at 5.30 AM) which I must write down.
I was sitting in a train, with my BF. I don't know where we were going (destiny unknown), but I knew it would be a long long long ride. We would be at the train for many hours, maybe days. Suddenly the atmosphere in the train changed. The other passengers became rude and violent. I did not feel safe. I did not know what to do. My BF reacted: he took out a knife and started threatening some aggressive passengers. Then the train stopped, and although we did not had to leave the train at that moment, we did. We got out the train and when we were safe at the station of God knows where, I felt that I didn't know where I was but that I'd rather felt that way than going straight to my destiny and not feeling fine along the ride.
For me it was clear what this dream was about: I have a choice. If my plan is to go to A, but on my way to A there are too many (or unexpected) bumps, I can change this plan. I don't have to stick to my original plan.
I went to law school to be able to work at a legal office. I do that for many years now. But I can leave this train if I want to. I know I have changed. I think Ashtanga took me by the hand to make these changes. Along the ride I realized more and more that the people I work with and the people I work for are no longer the people I want to work with and want to work for. I think in my dream I was with my BF on the train because he is already showing me the way. In my dream he reacted on the hostile situation as to where I was not. He does this in real life too: he takes control of his situation. He doesn't work with or for people if they don't click.