Thursday I had an all time feeling of bliss. Maybe I was tired, but I didn't feel it. I was happy, satisfied and proud. At work I felt like I had a secret, that only I knew why I was so terribly happy and that it had nothing to do with a love affair, sipping vodka or taking drugs.
I decided to take the Mysore membership, starting May 1. It is not May yet, so the rest of this month I will take led classes and practice at home. This Friday I practiced at home, in the morning, before work. When I got to Ardha Baddha Padmottanasana I noticed how stiff my right hip was. I think Ardha Baddha Padmottanasana is not an easy pose since I know I am afraid of falling on my head. When my hand touches the ground, all I need to do is focus on my breathing and literally do nothing else. Sometimes I think: 'Oh, this is going well,' then I immediately start to wobble. Just try to think nothing (..) and count the breaths, works for me. My left hip was doing fine, I could easily get into the posture.
Same was in Ardha Baddha Padma Paschimottanasana, obviously. Right I could not hold my toe, left I could grap it easily. It got me feeling frustrated and kind of angry at my right side. Until I realized what I was doing. I had to stop myself and say that stiff is not bad. It is my body talking to me. I have to be kind to my body, give it time and space. There is a reason for my right hip to be this stiff. Ashtanga is a journey, a lifetime journey. My right hip is on board.
I took this picture of these 'Perfect People' in NYC