This morning, I went to Sunday Led Class. Yes, my teacher had told us Mysore kids many times already that the once-a-week-Led-Class is an important part of the Mysore method and I had listened to it very carefully.
Still, it is not easy to practice on Sunday. From Monday through Friday is less difficult; I set the alarm at 5.30 AM, get up, go to practice, return home, eat breakfast and make myself ready to go to the office. There are hardly any distractions.
But in the weekend, my days are different. More free. Saturday is a rest day so I don't practice. And sometimes, I like to go to a party on Saturday evening. Then I'll be in bed late and sometimes I have had alcohol. In that case it is not so easy to go to Led Class at 8.30 AM with an empty stomach. Because yes, I always practice on an empty stomach, whether my practice starts at 6 AM or at 8.30 AM.
I could catch my fingers myself on the right side of Mary D. On the left side the teacher had to help me. He said: 'Only a few millimeters and you can do it yourself. Very good. I believe in you.'
The teacher says he believes in me, just as I am starting to believe a great deal in myself.
For some time now, I feel more and more fed up with my career, with the office, with my work environment. It no longer seems to fit me. I am changed; I believe the Ashtanga method is kicking in and it is transforming me. I now know better who I am, and what I want and what I don't want. And I've realized and felt in every bone in my body that I don't want to work in an environment where making more and more money is the main concern. And that I have to work on files and cases which don't have my interest.
Last week I met a former colleague. She asked how I was doing and if I still liked my job. I heard myself mumble and giving her a vague 'Oh well, you know, it's just work, it is not bad.' She accused me of not being enthusiastic enough about my job. I could not disagree.
'What are going to do about it?' She asked.
To be continued..