My Yogi Tea advised me to live through consciousness, and not through emotions. On point, I thought. I could say this to myself all day long. As soon as I realize I am distracted, that I am too much 'in my head' and not in the moment, I remind myself to live through consciousness. The first thing I always notice (when I am outside that is) and see very clearly, are the trees. There are so many of them where I live and they are all beautiful and proud. I feel sorry for them that I don't see them all the time, that I am so often distracted because I am thinking too much and not paying enough attention to my beautiful environment.
During Mysore this morning, I felt protected by the female yogi's around me. I am still a newbie (and will be for a very long time I guess) and the women on my left and right were so advanced and flexible and strong but still so calm and mature, I felt like having older sisters. I don't have an sister, all I have is a younger brother, and when I was little I think I wished more to have an older brother than to have an older sister, but again Yoga has taught me or shown me to love women more. I think before I preferred boys and men with everything. Not only in my love life, but also when it comes to friends, and colleagues, and my family. This has shifted. I think yoga helps me to love myself more as a woman and this helps me to love other women easier as well.
Live through consciousness, I was saying. During practice I started wondering what I would wear this Friday when I have this drink thing with my colleagues. I started drifting of until I realized what I was doing and I told myself: Who cares what you are going to wear, enjoy this Mysore practice, this shala and your big sisters around you.
I took this picture in Berlin, Germany