It was a Monday afternoon and I drank a huge glass of Gin & Tonic (and with raspberries and mint in it; yes, for only 9 Euros you get your money's worth). I got an unexpected invite of my manager. She wanted us to celebrate (our office is moving to another building), even though it was a Monday.
I immediately knew that we were going to drink alcohol and I was doubting: beer or wine? Then I saw this man next to me with a festive looking Gin & Tonic and I knew that was what I wanted too. Of course I also knew that this meant that I was not going to go to Mysore on Tuesday morning. The waitress brought us free snacks, since she heard we were celebrating. I said No, Thank You to the snack (it had meat in it), and surprised people by doing so (although I am very certain they already know I am a vegetarian, but maybe because you get something for free, you cannot refuse it?).
Tuesday morning I got up at 6 AM and practiced at home. It went very well and only half way through I remembered I drank alcohol the night before and that I had the feeling that it didn't affect me. So I thought maybe next time I still can go to Mysore Class even if I drank the night before. It gave my desire for drinking a positive impulse.
But at work (it was the day we moved our office to its current location) in the morning I suddenly saw flashes and I knew I was getting a migraine. I instantly started regretting the alcohol of the day before.
I read Dharma Punx by Noah Levine over the weekend and he writes a lot about being sober (of course after being an alcoholic at an early age and for quite some time).
Now I want to be sober too, for quite some time. Not that I am an alcoholic. I mean I can drink one glass of G & T. I don't binge drink. I don't drink until I pass out. But on the other hand, maybe I am an alcoholic, since I started drinking alcohol by the age of 15 and I guess and I have not had a month of no alcohol since.
Maybe it is time to give it a months try. But my calendar tells me I am meeting a friend this Saturday. For drinks.