My nerves woke me up. I immediately knew why. Today I had a big thing at work. I worked on this project for some time, and today was The Day. Clients were coming to our office to sign my pile of paper work. I had checked everything more than once and I was pretty sure I had not forgotten anything, but still. I just wished it was over.
First I went to Mysore Class. It was not very crowded and the atmosphere was very relaxed. Friday is Primary Day and some yogi's took it really slow. I noticed more than two people doing some asanas in a very calm pace and I saw two women in front of me, who'd entered the shala after me, lay in savasana sooner than I did.
I enjoyed the practice, I enjoyed being there and not having do deal with work at that time. Still, my monkey mind thought a lot about it and I had to remind myself:
Count your breaths
Count your breaths.
Suddenly it occurred to me: it is not all about counting the breaths. It is about really feeling them, to be really in the breath, to actually feel the inhale and exhale. This effected my breathing immediately. I breathed calm and deep and I was not in a hurry. I felt that if you are truly in the moment, it really is one breath at a time.
It doesn't matter what I have to do later today. Clients or no clients. It doesn't matter which postures come next, I don't have to worry about anything, it is only one breath at a time. Inhale, exhale and enjoy. What comes next? Who cares.