Thursday. Day five of my 'I-want-to-do-six-practices-in-a-row' week. When I was cycling to the studio, I thought my blog today would have to be about my body. About the some kind of transformation it is going through and the body parts I can see changing (although my BF still thinks my butt is too big).
But then something happened after the opening prayer and I didn't want to write about my body anymore. At least, not today.
Just as I was getting into Virabhadrasana A the teacher called us with Samasthiti to get to the top of our mats. I put my hands in prayer position, closed my eyes and we Ohmed together. Then we chanted the opening prayer.
After that, like always, I kept my eyes closed and my hands in prayer position for another half a minute. In those moments, I feel calm. Or maybe satisfied? Blessed? Thankful? I don't know exactly (as I writer, you are always in search of words that don't even exist).
And in that moment, I sometimes talk to myself in terms like: I am safe, or: I have faith. Or I don't say anything, but just listen to my calm breathing.
This time, out of nowhere, with my eyes closed, I saw the face of Pattabhi Jois. I was a bit shocked. Why did I see him?
Then I heard him say: 'Just keep going'.
Again I felt confused. What was happening? Was I already losing my mind?
Then I became curious. I kept my eyes closed and my hands in prayer position, hoping I would get some more advice of him. But I wasn't. Again he said: 'Just keep going'.
I saw his smiling face, as I know it from pictures on the internet. His happy, smiling face.
I too smiled, opened my eyes, and kept going. My fifth practice this week felt great.
I took this picture at a concert of Massive Attack