My brother is a lot into meditation, self-healing and breath work for the past two years. He has learned very much about it in a relatively short period of time. He went a couple of times to a seven days silent meditation retreat, and I've watched him change for the better. He is more self aware, more balanced, happier and braver. When we are at our parents house having dinner together, my brother and I talk about the universe, meditation and reincarnation like we are discussing a sports match. Our parents sometimes will think we have lost our minds.
This morning I went to the Mysore Class and I was completely into the practice, especially after we chanted the opening prayer. I felt happy and open and the thought: I can feel the love of God, crossed my mind. It made me smile at first but later I got a bit confused. "I feel the love of God?" What is happening with me? Even though I am a Catholic, I am not a practitioner of the Catholic believe and I don't think in terms of God. I've only talked to God if I had to take an exam or a job interview or if I had a date with someone I really liked. And even then it had nothing to do with love or with God, it had everything to do with my overwhelming nerves.
So I felt the Love of God. I kept thinking about it. I texted my brother.
'I took Yoga this morning, and during practice I thought: I can feel the love of God. Do you think I am in a cult?'
He replied immediately.
'No, you are not in a cult. You are experiencing a spiritual awakening!'
I don't know how to feel about this.