Lesson in English. For me and maybe also for you. Because I know I have troubles dealing with this one: to lose - to loose.
I lose weight
I lost weight
I was losing weight
I will lose weight
It is never loose. To loose is something else, it means to release something.
Got it. Back to the weight loss.
I told my friend I had been sick this week, that I suffered from a stomach flu.
'At least now I can fit into my wedding dress.'
She gave me a surprised look. And then laughed. She knows I am not the marrying kind.
I lost some weight this week. Due to the fact that I was throwing up and not eating very much. And this was caused by a stomach flu. Easiest diet in the world, for me. I am not the marrying kind, nor am I the anorexic type. I could never starve myself to death to lose my extra pounds, simply because I like to eat. That's not true. I don't like to eat, I LOVE to eat and I have the appetite of a large American Football player.
I spend a lot of time thinking about the meals I am going to prepare. I don't hate grocery shopping and I read recipes as a hobby. I am not fat, but I think my ideal weight would be a few pounds (let's say... six) less.
I think I've lost three pounds this week. This morning, I got in my yoga pants for the first time this week and I felt it immediately. They turned from a size S into a size M. I lost some of my leg-thighs-butt-fat. It almost turned me on, I felt proud and sexy. So maybe there is a little anorexic person inside of me.
As slowly as possible I started to practice. Surya Namaskara A. I took long, deep breaths and stretched to the max. It felt good, much better than I'd expected. I must admit I was a little scared to go back to the mat. I felt more flexible than before I got sick. My heels easily touched the ground in Down Dog. Immediately I started thinking: either you're strong or you're flexible. If I've somehow overnight gained some magic flexibility, I should have lost my strength. During Surya Namaskara B I had to catch my breath and I had to admit I did not feel very strong. But my body felt nice, with the weight loss and the flexibility in my legs. Ardha Baddha Padmottanasana did not ever feel so easy. Not that my chin touched my shin, but I could bind in a second and my hip, even my dark-side-right-hip never felt so open. I was cheering on the inside and I practiced the pose four times for five breaths. So maybe there is something good in being sick, losing weight and staying away from the mat for a week. At least nothing bad happened and I did not lose a pose.
The weight loss is Mos Def an advantage. Without the three pounds, binding is easier, my jumping is lighter, and it will only take a few more weeks before I can fly.
Then Saturday night came. I watched an episode of Ozark and my BF let me try a handful of crisps. They tasted so good that I ate half of the bag.