'Do you want your health, do you want to feel sane, or would you do anything for success?' I asked my BF. I felt curious, therefor I asked. And I wanted to let him think about this.
For a few days, he had been complaining and looking like sh*t. He said he didn't feel very well. Dizziness, pain in his shoulders and neck, dry eyes, headaches.
The week before, he had been working a lot. In his case this means: spending as much time as he could working on his laptop. For hours and hours straight. Drinking only coffee. Listening to loud podcasts about politics. Going to bed late at night and getting up only a few hours later to continue his work. Spending a lot of time on social media. I felt exhausted only by looking at him.
A few years back, when he was still studying (in art school), I asked him what he wanted out of life.
'I want to be famous,' he answered immediately.
I was impressed. And from that moment, I watched him gain success. What he wants, he gets. But not for free. It takes hours and hours of focus, concentration, hard work, discipline, little sleep and little time for a real social life. But he showed me, that if you want it, you can have it. I admired his concentration, his focus, his discipline.
Now it is a turning point. Maybe because I am thinking more about it. What is this thing, Success? What do get from it? People admire you. But who are these people? Are they important to you? Most of them are not.
Is it for the money? Maybe. Money can buy you freedom. But if you are famous and you want to stay that way, you still have to invest a lot. Not only money, but time too. And your energy. Maybe even your soul.
It is kind of fiction, being famous. You want it, and someday you have it. Then what? Do you enjoy it the way you thought you would enjoy it?
I took this picture in NYC, obviously